Locked Down
Monday, March 14, 2011 at 8:14AM
First off, let me just say this. Coming into this family, I never EVER imagined that EVER in my life with the Henricksons would I EVER need to dodge a bullet. Never! I guess we should’ve taken Bill a little more seriously when he said we were in lockdown.
Calling all investigators and reporters that read my blog to get dirt on my family and make us feel like second-class citizens! C’mon I know you’re out there. I know you read my stuff. Well, read this: Albert Grant is a maniac! First, like a coward, he hired someone to kill Don to no avail. He came after Bill. And Nicki. And then he killed the henchman he hired to kill Don. He’s such a damn loose cannon that he shot at ME, in a government building no less! HE'S the criminal here. NOT BILL. Not my husband! Thankfully he’s a poor shot because who knows where I’d be right now if it weren’t for that weak gun hand of his? I’m so glad he’s finally being put to justice after all these years. Now he’ll serve time for all the cruel things he has done throughout his bitter, effed-up life.
Okay! There’s a side of me we don’t see that often. Changing gears…
Aside from the incident on the Hill, lockdown has afforded us some wonderful quality time together. It kind of harks back to my Family Home Evening teachings. I’m really getting a chance to connect with all the kids. I’m tellin’ ya, they need us now more than ever. They need guidance. They need someone to help them cope with what might happen to Bill. I’m not sure how I feel yet about my babies growing up with an imprisoned father. (I still know it can’t happen. It just can’t.) But, in the meantime, the only thing I can do is make them feel comfortable in our homes. To take their mind off what COULD happen to our family, and remind them of those things that have kept us together and WILL keep us together no matter what happens: our undying faith, support, and love for one another.
What better way to reinforce our family’s strengths than through song? Teaching the kids some classic Bob Dylan was so much fun. While we were learning the lyrics of “Blowin’ in the Wind” they started really questioning the song’s meaning. For instance, after singing “How many seas must a white dove sail before she sleeps in the sand?” Lester asked why there was a dove in the song and Raymond told him it was a symbol for peace and equality. “How many years can a mountain exist before it’s washed out to sea?” was a bit tougher for them. They all took a minute to grasp this one, but we talked it through and soon they got the fact that nothing lasts forever and we mustn’t take what we have for granted. Even the tallest mountain will fall eventually.
I never exactly understood the chorus of the song or the title, so re-learning the song with them was eye-opening for me too. I realized the answers to all our questions, the resolutions to all our problems, the path to the Heavenly Kingdom – everything is so perfectly laid out in front of us, but most of the time we sadly fail to see it. If we just stop to look around and think about our surroundings every so often, we’d realize that all our answers, as good ol’ Bobby would put it, are blowin’ in the wind. Right under our noses!
Before I go, I just want to again thank those of you who have stuck by me through all this. After all that’s happened you’re still on our side, and that’s so incredibly reassuring. You make me so hopeful! I may have lost some readers and some friends along the way, but such a loss comes with claiming one’s true identity. I can get by without those people. I’ve learned that their negative energy will only drag me down. Keep your chin up and be thankful for the friends and loved ones you have, because who knows what tomorrow will bring?
The support you guys have given in recent months –your kind words and advice has all been so invaluable. Thank you for rooting for us. If it weren’t for you, Internet, I wouldn’t be where I am today.
I’m sticking by my family until the bitter end, whatever that end may be. It’s why Heavenly Father put me on this planet. So here’s to keeping my head high and working through whatever lies ahead.
Love always,
Margie
Reader Comments (63)
I like your character and reading your blog, I get good insight in to the show. I wish they were not taking the show off the air. I am so glad they are taking down that compound before the show ends. I will miss all of the people of your family. While I do not believe in plural marriage, I think you are the sweeties of them all, and at least the Bill in your story, is firmly committed to his family and supporting them. So many men just make babies, walk away, marry someone else and do it again.
I am going to miss you and the Henricksons so much, it's beyond imagination. I have always had a fascination with the fundamental LDS religion and have come to love you and the family. I have to say that this season has shown you mature by leaps and bounds and that family is so lucky to have you.
Sarah
PS - As Ginnifer, I think you're great, too. :-)
Ken
So true......My daughter was killed in an auto accident in May 2010.
We will miss you and your family. It seems funny to be heartbroken over a TV family. But I am. I will miss you all. My daughter and I had so much fun watching and talking about this show. Thanks for all the great memories of watching Big Love with my daughter. We even got my 68 year old Dad watching Big Love. He said Big Love is better than Dallas and Falcon Crest
Big Love to all
Meme
This show has been something to look forward to every Sunday and I will miss it intensely. I enjoyed learning about plural marriage. We have several Amish in our area, and there were several parallels in the way they live and the people at the compound. I have enjoyed this so much! With a disabled hubby, our major source of entertainment is TV and we will so miss you! The character of Margene is a joy and delight!
Shelley Rose
Peace and Thank You!
Thank you for an absolutely wonderful last 5 years. I will miss you and your family very much. Would it be possible to keep up on your blog and keep everyone posted on how you and your family are doing? Maybe a movie?
I just don't want it to end!
Love,
Julie
And yes, song is so important. I've joined a song circle recently. Singing shared songs is great! Good luck in the future!
I literally sat and said "no no no no no" to myself when it happened.
I love your personality. You are what I imagine myself to be in my marriage.
And, if I was nearly as strong as you, as loving and open as you, I too could make it in polygamy.
I know that next week will be the last blog.
But, to the writers: Thank you for the best, most heart-opening show/experience of my life.
These women have formed a part of me, and everything I do, every day, I can laugh and see as a "Barb-Moment" a "Nicki-Moment"(rare) or a "Margie-Moment." Hell, even an "Ana-Moment"
I will mourn the days when I will no longer have Margene on my internets here.
I love you guys dearly, and I have been commenting on your blog from the day it came online. (either as Beth, Beffy or Abbabeffy) and, if anything special will come forth from this, I'd love to know.
Margie...
I'm your biggest, most heartfelt fan.
I hope you won't forget me, I'll never, ever forget you. <3
(Think of me when you hear an ABBA song, I think of you when I hear "Take Your Momma Out")
-Beffy
Whether it's by choice, death or some other reason. But they all end. Always.
And like your friends you used to know so well in school or the co-workers in the office you left behind, your life still goes on without them. And so do theirs without you.
Lives lived apart now, where they were once intertwined.
So it goes.
I have been watching for going on five years now. You have grown so much, what I dig about you is your energy and positive character that even in the face of horrible things, you confront them and are strong and always vibrant and hopeful. I just don 't understand how others around you in the family cannot feel a radiance or radiant feeling from just being around you. I love watching the show because not only when I Have had my own pitfalls in life, they seem so small compared to what your family is going through, and you are always bring and uplifting. Keep it up Margene. Wishing you the best in this life and the other one. .