First off, let me just say this. Coming into this family, I never EVER imagined that EVER in my life with the Henricksons would I EVER need to dodge a bullet. Never! I guess we should’ve taken Bill a little more seriously when he said we were in lockdown.
Calling all investigators and reporters that read my blog to get dirt on my family and make us feel like second-class citizens! C’mon I know you’re out there. I know you read my stuff. Well, read this: Albert Grant is a maniac! First, like a coward, he hired someone to kill Don to no avail. He came after Bill. And Nicki. And then he killed the henchman he hired to kill Don. He’s such a damn loose cannon that he shot at ME, in a government building no less! HE'S the criminal here. NOT BILL. Not my husband! Thankfully he’s a poor shot because who knows where I’d be right now if it weren’t for that weak gun hand of his? I’m so glad he’s finally being put to justice after all these years. Now he’ll serve time for all the cruel things he has done throughout his bitter, effed-up life.
Okay! There’s a side of me we don’t see that often. Changing gears…
Aside from the incident on the Hill, lockdown has afforded us some wonderful quality time together. It kind of harks back to my Family Home Evening teachings. I’m really getting a chance to connect with all the kids. I’m tellin’ ya, they need us now more than ever. They need guidance. They need someone to help them cope with what might happen to Bill. I’m not sure how I feel yet about my babies growing up with an imprisoned father. (I still know it can’t happen. It just can’t.) But, in the meantime, the only thing I can do is make them feel comfortable in our homes. To take their mind off what COULD happen to our family, and remind them of those things that have kept us together and WILL keep us together no matter what happens: our undying faith, support, and love for one another.
What better way to reinforce our family’s strengths than through song? Teaching the kids some classic Bob Dylan was so much fun. While we were learning the lyrics of “Blowin’ in the Wind” they started really questioning the song’s meaning. For instance, after singing “How many seas must a white dove sail before she sleeps in the sand?” Lester asked why there was a dove in the song and Raymond told him it was a symbol for peace and equality. “How many years can a mountain exist before it’s washed out to sea?” was a bit tougher for them. They all took a minute to grasp this one, but we talked it through and soon they got the fact that nothing lasts forever and we mustn’t take what we have for granted. Even the tallest mountain will fall eventually.
I never exactly understood the chorus of the song or the title, so re-learning the song with them was eye-opening for me too. I realized the answers to all our questions, the resolutions to all our problems, the path to the Heavenly Kingdom – everything is so perfectly laid out in front of us, but most of the time we sadly fail to see it. If we just stop to look around and think about our surroundings every so often, we’d realize that all our answers, as good ol’ Bobby would put it, are blowin’ in the wind. Right under our noses!
Before I go, I just want to again thank those of you who have stuck by me through all this. After all that’s happened you’re still on our side, and that’s so incredibly reassuring. You make me so hopeful! I may have lost some readers and some friends along the way, but such a loss comes with claiming one’s true identity. I can get by without those people. I’ve learned that their negative energy will only drag me down. Keep your chin up and be thankful for the friends and loved ones you have, because who knows what tomorrow will bring?
The support you guys have given in recent months –your kind words and advice has all been so invaluable. Thank you for rooting for us. If it weren’t for you, Internet, I wouldn’t be where I am today.
I’m sticking by my family until the bitter end, whatever that end may be. It’s why Heavenly Father put me on this planet. So here’s to keeping my head high and working through whatever lies ahead.