Monday
Feb212011
Just Getting Home…
Monday, February 21, 2011 at 8:49AM Hey Internet,
I’ve been so busy lately. So, so busy. Good busy. And it feels very – what’s the right word for this? – centering. Putting my mind and my heart into a good cause like this rally makes me feel like I’m on top of the world. Getting our name and our lifestyle out there in the public eye gives me so much hope for this family. I helped create such a positive, NORMAL image for us. Finally, FINALLY, the world is beginning to see us for who we really are.
Bill has been so supportive through the whole process. It’s great that we’re finally seeing eye-to-eye on something. You know, ever since Christmas when I – well, you know the story – ever since then, he’s been pretty cold to me. And yes, I totally understand why, I do. I get it now. Having him support me during this, knowing that he has my back again, seeing the pride in his eyes when we talk about the rally… it all feels so good. What better way to bring us back together than children rallying for our cause?
It was unbelievable having Benny involved. He’s always there for me. And Cara Lynn was right there by my side through the whole thing too. Cara Lynn, that girl, she is really coming into her own. She has evolved so much since entering the family. Sometimes I feel like she and I are toooootally on the same page. She is so smart and so caring and she just GETS me. In an odd way I see myself in her. Gosh, to think of me at her age? I was so lost then, and the last thing I want is for her to be in my shoes. If Barb and Bill’s divorce (ugh, that word!) is in fact solely for her well-being, then, well, I support it.
The rally was a great success. Hey, you might even be seeing my pretty face on the news! I gave a press speech about how much I love the Principle, how I’m proud of the fact that my children have the opportunity to grow up in a household with so much love.
I remember my dream the night before the event clearly. It started just before I went to the podium to make my speech. I looked down at my flash cards to review my talking points, but there weren’t any words. The first card was a black and white wedding picture of a man and woman I didn’t recognize. I flipped to the next card and there was another couple. And then another. Then there was a man and two women. And then there was a picture of just two men in wedding garb, then three men with no wives, and after that three women with no husband. After flipping frantically through the flash cards I came to the four of us – Bill, Barb, Nicki, and me. Suddenly I heard a familiar voice. “Mrs. Henrickson?
We’re ready for your speech.” It was Mom. She was reaching out for my hand, ready to lead me to the podium. Her hand was cold and hard, but her eyes were vibrant, excited, full of life. When she let go of my hand, I took a moment to look out at my audience. My, was there ever an audience! People as far as the eye could see. And they were all happy, accepting, holding signs showing their support for my cause.
But then when I opened my mouth to begin the speech, nothing came out. I tried forcing myself so hard to speak but I couldn’t. I was speechless. That’s when I woke up.
Well even though the dream was discouraging, I really nailed my speech. Like, I tore it up, y’all. I feel so proud of what I’ve done, so accomplished. We’re really making some good progress in the trenches. We just all have to stick together. As long as we stick together, we’ll be able to show this world what we’re really made of.
xo,
Margie
Margie
Reader Comments (17)
I see your business gogi juice is expanding! What a great way to establish yourself in the community. So is gogi juice part of Amway? There are lots more opportunities? How do you handle Niki taking over as first wife? Are you worried that she will take over a new way of doing business? Or do you see that Bill and Barb are trying to provide her false sense of security?
I think you've done a great job with the rally and continuing your development in the faith. You're very patient with your sister wives even when they are wrong. I applaud you for that. I always have. Keep fighting the good fight.
-Cameron
I suspect that many of them are from Minnesota, where I have had the dubious pleasure of residing for the last year. 'Folks' here would also likely be disconcerted at the thought of people posting comments to a fictional character (but, hey, they also don't recognize basic sarcasm either).
Being young and Proud of who you ad your family are is the best way for any family to grow and move forward.
Oh if you were a real person I bet we would be best of friends. talking about our kids and drinking hot cocoa till 3am. what ever you do dont give up your friendship and dont let your friendship with your neighbor disapear over work.
you def need a friend outside the family and i feel she has a good heart!
It's just a bunch of fans having a little fun. Lighten the eff up, grow an imagination, and maybe take up heavy drinking to kill that bug up your butt.
I am just a regular gal whom has always held my personal love for God close to my heart. With recent happenings in the cosmos and changes I have made for the better in my own life and environment: I am getting the new revelations about this purpose I hold and it includes speaking to the writer for Big Love.
Margene, you represent the push that my angels are showing me. This revelation of my own personal faith and my place in the "family" or for me, my purpose on earth.
Please, someone reading this, have the writer for Big Love write to me.
I have a wardrobe question for Kristine Haag or Lexi Cuesta about episode 5.6 DIVORCE. Is the (silk/rayon?) black/beige print dress Barb wore to church in the first third of the episode available through retail somewhere? Would anyone be so kind as to hint where can I find it?
Sincere thanks for taking the trouble to forward our real questions to the appropriate place and a "hang in there" to fictional Margene. You seem to be keeping busy! - Cou